I can't wait to go home..I've finally got everything shipped to me and it's starting to feel a little more like home. I'm goin to a church that's smaller than I'm used to; I've already lead singing there (which was a challenge, but still uplifting). My temporary job that I'm at while awaiting training is proving to be beneficial (in finance which means my pay problems get solved faster than everyone else's). I'm happy...yet I still miss home terribly; I miss my family; and even though I'm living by myself, I miss my roommates, lol. But most of all I miss her... I'm not as eloquent as she is in describing how she feels. But how I feel is more than just a feeling, more than just similarities in personality, more than just a need for each other, more than just a another transition in life that everyone goes through.. but it's a choice. Because, you can take all of those reasons away and I'd still love her because I choose to. And because I know for a fact that she has made that same choice..despite my many flaws. That by which means miles, states, oceans or worlds apart could separate us but nothing would change. And last but not least I Love Emily because she is a christian trying to help her and I get closer to God (even though we're thousands of miles apart). I hope you can say the same about the person you love, and if so give thanks to God for that person. I miss all of you and hope to see you soon.
you said it very eloquently. and it is a wonderful feeling to know that there is someone out there who chooses to love you even though they are miles away. it is an amazing feeling!
I wouldn't say it's really tough times for me altogether, there are just some aspects in my life that still linger in the back of my head while everything else seems to be going good around me. Let me just say to my fellow southsiders; I do believe Dee and bubba and the rest are the elders are VERY right in saying that southside is one of the most fortunate, blessed churches in the world. I've been to churches pretty much almost all over the country and nothing compares to the church in Pasadena...
I've been having just slight hard times finding a good church out here in cali. I mean, it's not like the churches out here are teachin bogus stuff, they're pretty much spot on as far as following the scriptures. However, every church i've been to has "at least" a 50 year age difference than mine. I've taken all what good this could still be; more older people=more wise surroundings, I don't have to have a similar age group to worship with to please God, and this could be just an opportunity to bring people my age to church. It's just discouraging..to go from something so great and big to something much smaller in numbers. Hard to get use to, but I'll get use to it :)
So please pray that I stay strong and find a decent good church out here.
So if you have a support group of people your age, DO NOT take it for granted
if anyone can break a barrier, its you honey. i think this might be what God wants from you right now, think of it as an opportunity to show how strong of a Christian you really are (away from all the support you're used to) ^_^
i'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I experienced the same feeling whenever I moved here to CS and didn't go to southside anymore. Although I was really lucky to have a huge group of people my age, there's just a different feeling about being away from your HOME. But after a while it gets better, I promise. But you're a great person and an awesome example to so many people and I'm so glad that you are seeing this as an opportunity and don't just something negative. I love you so much and I'll be praying for you! and I can't wait to see you for thanksgiving!!!!! :)
I finally have cable and internet, along with a new hp laptop. Even though I have actualy enjoyed my time doin some reading, i'm glad to have the internet back again. Just still waitin on the rest of my stuff to be delivered here :/
You never realize how much time you spend watching TV or on the internet till they're both gone.
I'm sick, and it's no fun when your in a new place by yourself..
I've finaly moved into my new apt and it's pretty awesome. The only not awesome part about it is not having any furniture..but atleast I have a bed and a few TV dinners in the fridge :). I'm at the library on base which is a bit of a drive from where I live, so I probably won't be on the internet much for a few weeks untill cable guys come and hook me up, and my wireless router comes in a few weeks (along with my other junk).
That's really it for now, oh yea and here's my new address:
915 West Morrison ave. apt 156
Santa Maria, CA 93458
